August 23, 2001

Posted by on Aug 23, 2001 in General Writing

I have decided, rather forcefully, to take back my mornings. Or rather, my writing.

Over the past two weeks, I have to admit to doing almost no writing. No writing on this website really, no writing for magazines, no writing on postcards even.

My mind has just been absorbing all the changes, I’ve been finally getting everything together, I’ve been making so many discoveries and I’ve been busy.

And I don’t look at the above as excuses, because they’re not. I think what has kept me busy and occupied the past two weeks have been extremely important. Because I am more than just writing, and I’m finally expressing all that I am.

However, I have missed writing. I have missed my rituals that I did. My mornings of breakfast, yoga, dancing and writing had been replaced with haphazard awakenings met with scrambling for busses here and there to this place and that, for this art interview or that class or trying to deal with everything at once. I haven’t spent much time at home.

But I woke up at 8am this morning, refreshed and ready to go. I moved myself into the den, shut the door, opened the window and put the blinds up, and sat myself in front of the computer. Now I’m ready to take on the morning – even if it’s Sunday.

For me, I need to have the ritual of writing, a time set aside. Even when all I was doing was writing it was important for me to have just the mornings set aside for writing. This was especially odd to me since I had always been a night owl. But the mornings always seemed undisturbed, fresh, relaxed, and it just seemed the perfect quiet time for just me to write.

I think now, it’s especially vital that I carve out time for writing because of all the art classes & programs I’m in – not to mention time with Chris that is important as well. And if I don’t keep the mornings to myself, the writing could easily disappear. The afternoons and evenings always have plans and the end of the day I’m tired and uncreative. But the mornings, their mine, all mine. There’s no excuse not to get up, sit down, and write.

And since writing is so important to me, I have to make the time to do it. If I don’t, then nothing happens, and I feel like I’ve come too far to just let it all go.