Oct. 27, 2001
If I wait for things to calm down a bit so that I can catch my breath, I realise that I will be waiting quite some time. Life doesn’t stop for anyone, especially for me and especially right now.
That’s not a negative thing however. I’m currently riding an energy and creative high and I feel like I’ve got to just go with it for fear of losing all the momentum. After all the months of the ups and downs I have realised that a creative life is just that. One minute you’ll be creating like a mad man and the next you’ll be wallowing in self pity, complaining how you have not even one brilliant or creative idea at all. It’s a cycle, it’s life.
So now I am working on a million different ideas and trying hard to focus in on just a couple. I think that’s a problem with creativity is that when you’re on such a high, your mind works overtime and brain begins to create so many ideas. So many that it is almost impossible to do them all. That can lead to a bad situation if you’re not careful because you don’t want to start to think that you’re not doing all that you could do, or that every idea is on the same level of importance. For me, I’ve had to learn how to weed through them all and to learn how to decide what I can do now, what I can do later, and what I won’t be able to do at all.
I think that kind of thinking is vital especially when there are so many options and ideas floating around in your brain. Focus and attention are critical and unfortunately, they are also my weak areas. Aren’t free sprits meant to be free and not contemplating using a palm pilot?
But I realise for my sanity, for the work, for actually getting paid, that I have to organise, focus and create.
Therefor, I’ve decided I need to write my goals for the next couple of months. I’m debating at this point if I should have a deadline or daily goals or word count. Maybe that will feel like pressure so perhaps I’ll wade into this slowly and just write them down first.
So, my goals over the next month are as follows:
- Really make some headway on my portfolio – including showcasing my published works, unpublished works, photography, and art.
- To rework my travel writings and get the travel site up and running.
- Start my other site which will be a component of girlatplay.com which will feature other women like myself and spread the word that living a dream really is possible.
- And last but not least, continue to work on my magazine articles and hopefully make my first sale.
That’s not a small plate I realise. And perhaps I’m being overly ambitious. Time will tell. The strange thing about this, is that for the first time I’m not afraid to begin. I actually feel ready.