Dec. 17, 2001
I’ve had in my mind, a huge project. A project that involved lots of work, effort and being brave.
It was to create a website that showcased other women who were on the same path as myself because I have received so many emails from people who have said how grateful they were to find someone else trying to find their way. I wanted to share with them that I’m not the only one out there – there is a lot of us out there.
About 5 months ago I created the domain name for it. I started to tinker around with creating the website. But nothing ever really got done – despite the fact I truly believed in this. No matter how much I talked about it or thought about it, nothing ever developed into something real. It always remained just an idea.
When I kicked my arse the other day, I finally got it all done. I realised I was holding back on beginning and finishing the project because I was so afraid of it failing, or people not wanting to participate in it, or the audience not wanting to see it. But the other day I just realised that if I can do it, I need to do it. I have to try, even if it fails.
I ended up working like mad for a couple of days creating the Visit the Site – Another Girl at Play!website, figuring out whom to contact and gathering email addresses. Once I had done that there was only one thing left to do – write a proposal, contact other people and invite them to participate.
To me, that was the scariest thing ever. It was one thing for me to just know about it and be OK with it, but it was a whole other bag to let others know about it.
But I did it. I wrote up the proposal and sent it off to people I thought would be perfect.
When I hit the “send” button and the email went on it’s way, I felt both excited and scared. Excited because I was finally doing something rather than just keeping it locked away in my mind and scared because I could get a lot of rejection. When something stays in your mind, only you can reject it and that’s a lot easier to control. Making it real takes courage, I know. You have to be able to get rejected and say, “Ok, that just didn’t work out. Next!”
So with that attitude, rather than sit and focus on that site and what could happen, I decided I had to just release it and let what happens with it happen. There were other projects I needed to work on and moving forward is always a good direction.
Then as I was working on other things, the emails started to come in. Slowly but surely, people were saying yes! People were telling me they were excited. People saying they’d love to participate and knew of someone else. A buzz started to happen and the fear started to slowly melt away.
Of course, there is still a lot of work to be done on the site, but it looks like it will happen.
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