June 23, 2002
This site and Another Girl at Play have both been down all day – and it’s almost midnight. This means no email, no website, and no mailing list – which is currently lost all thanks to my server accidentally doing something wrong.
Besides the obvious reasons, my stress levels have been at an all time high the past week because I’ve felt as though I haven’t been able to work. I didn’t have a plan in place should so many things go wrong. I used to think if ‘X’ didn’t work I’d just move on to ‘Y’. I never stopped to ask myself what I’d do if ‘X,’ ‘Y,’ and ‘Z’ were broken at the same time.
Now, I’m asking myself.
I’m trying to put a plan into place so should everything strike me at once again, I can still work and move forward. I’ve put all my work contacts on my Palm Pilot so if another internet outage occurs, I can go to the public library, rent a computer, log onto my email and let people know what is going on. I’m backing up all my files onto a zip disk so if the computer crashes again I can go to my husbands school’s computer lab and work on files from there. On top of that, I trying to find ways to relax and remove myself from a bad situation that I can’t immediately fix instead of sitting and stressing over all the problems.
Thinking of what to do “in case” is helping me to deal with a situation I thought was hopeless. Feeling overwhelmed prevented me from thinking clearly and consequently I wasn’t able to do much of anything. Now, understanding that everything can – and will – blow up at once has helped me to find ways to deal with it.
It’s times like these when I realise how much of a godsend strong tea really is.