September 24, 2003
What was plaguing me on September 05th is now making me rather proud.
When I realized that I am ultimately in control and that yes, one person can close some doors but others can open them, I decided to participate in the project on my terms. This means that when I received my bit that was to be in the book to review, I decided to rewrite it as I wasn’t happy with how it had been edited. Although no words had been changed, the meat of what I was saying, my ideas, my truth, were taken out and I was left saying fluffy things that didn’t make sense.
I decided if I am going to participate, I must be happy with it and it must represent what I am about. I rewrote my bit in a clever and smart way; clever so that it sounds like what they are asking for but smart in that I’m saying what I need to in the way I need to. That means that they get what they want and I, I get to feel satisfied instead of mortified.
I got my ending.